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Article #7:    If you would have asked me does $2600 worth the money? My answer would be both "YES" and "NO". Why? Yes, because for Bernice. For example, I don't mind spending $268 for the concert ticket just to seat at a better spot. I really wanted to take good pictures and clear video clips for the fanclub. Personally, I think the gathering was a success. With so many fans and limited time, I could get two things done, 1) each fans got to take 2-4 pics w/ Bernice 2) more than 3 autographs from Bernice... Don't you think this is more than expected? I mean each fans got to sit w/ Bernice and chat w/ her privately when asking for her autographs. You really should appreciate Bernice for being so nice. Overall, I hope and thought everyone had a good time at the gathering. As for the concert, I tried my best to hold the light sign as high as I could, and yelled for "Bernice"... I'm sure she heard me. I even said "Bernice, you're so pretty", and she heard me and replied me from the stage. I was really delighted for this.    However, not until I was criticized for improperly took in charge of "someone"'s job. This accusation was a bit harsh for me to take. For those who I have been sending/replying emails to, at the very most beginning, I have already explained my situation that I'm from California, USA, and there's a proper representation in Toronto that you should have contacted, therefore, I had explained clearly that I couldn't say or help much. All I can do is try my best to clear up some of the concerns.

Article #6: I think the last two articles were a bit heavy to digest, so I'm gonna write sth more relax today. Just wanted to calculate my expenses for this trip. How much did I spend? Does it worth the money? I will not include the meals I spent since even I'm not going to Toronto, I'll be eating meals. I will just include those extra expenses I spent especially for this trip. $1190.95 Flight Tickets + Luggage Check-in + Parking @ Airport $ 432.81 Hotels + Parking @ Hotel $ 364.32 Car Rental + Gas $ 137.01 Gathering = Pictures + Labels + Mic & Speaker + Autograph Book $ 268.00 Concert Ticket (I paid for my own VIP Ticket) $  88.38 Signs (Materials like glow sticks to make banners) $ 134.35 Phone Bills for extra Long-D & Roaming charges 1) Long-D Calls I made to Toronto for information from Tai Pan about the gathering & concert 2) Roaming Calls I received in Toronto by mobile 3) Urgent Long-D Phone Calls I made in Toronto by mobile 4) SMS I received in Toronto by mobile 5) SMS I sent in Toronto by mobile 6) Phone Calls I made in Toronto at hotels by Skype 7) SMS I sent at hotels in Toronto by Skype $2615.82 Total in US Dollars I admit I'm not a rich person, so I always tried my best to find a cheaper way to call or SMS. That's why I always tried to use my Skype internet phone to call & SMS, but I can only use this when I have internet, ie, that's when I's in my hotel room. However, I have to check-out everyday b4 12 noon, so most of my daytime, I will not have internet to make cheap phone calls. I do apologize for this inconvenient. Why didn't I tell everyone my Skype phone number so that I don't have to pay my roaming cell phone charges? ‘coz my skype phone number is a Hong Kong phone number, I do not want any fans to be paying international long D to call me, I thought calling to US should be cheaper than calling to Hong Kong. Besides, if I'm able to use the internet to answer calls, I would have been sending emails to answer you or MSNing. I hope my husband didn't see this expenses table, or else he'll be shocked. Even he didn't see this, I know he knows in the bottom of his heart. After all, he's even a more math & science oriented person, ‘coz he's a physics, to be exact, an applied physics PhD, his math is even better than me. He should know way better than me how much we have spent on this trip. I admit he got quite angry when I kept on using my cell phone when I was in Toronto. He even turned it off after the concert so that I will not be disturbed and thus will not have to pay for the extra roaming charges. In order to minimize the expenses, I already got the flight ticket from San Francisco/San Jose to Buffalo instead. Flying local is cheaper than flying internationally. The flight tickets expenses from San Francisco/San Jose to Toronto will be at least $700 more. I wonder, was there any expenses on this list I could have avoided? If the proper official representative did his/her job more responsible, thus I don't have to take in charge from a non-local area, I'm sure my expenses could be lower. Probably I could have spent $120 less on the phone bills, I do not have to be get materials for making signs, I do not have to prepare things for the gathering. If I could be so "shameless" like someone to wait for FREE concert ticket at the very last moment, I could sure spend a lot less for this trip. That would be, I could have saved $614.27. If the other two fans from New York didn't cancelled their trip at the very last moment (when I was at the airport from from San Francisco to Buffalo/Toronto), and then they would have been sharing the hotels fees w/ me, I could save an extra $2xx. If I was not the organizer, I did not have that much of a work-load (including organizing the gathering, replying emails... etc), I would NOT ask my husband to come to do all the driving for me. (Because I's the organizer, I wasted a lot of time replying emails & concerns of the fans thus making me didn't have enough sleep. Therefore, I need a driver for my trip so that my only sleeping time will be in the car not at the hotel. I'm sure many fans got my email replies or phone calls or SMSs in the middle of the night, and I do apologize for that.) You can asked the fans from New York or the HK fanclub leader, I didn't decide to let my husband to come along until the very last minute (when I officially asked to help in charge.) If, if, if… with all the ifs… my total expenses will only be $1095.19. Wow, amazing! This is about the right price (or even cheaper than) I spent for going to Bernice's concert at Atlantic City last Christmas. I had to fly all over from the West Coast to East Coast again to see Bernice's Concert. The flight ticket during Christmas was not cheap.

Article #5: (Note: A君、B君、C君和D君in this Article #5 is different from the A君、B君、C君、E君、F君和G君 in Article #4.)    A君的手段太高，自問招架不來。    例如上次A君叫B君叫我不用再接C君的電話，但轉個頭A君又叫C君打電話給我說要我打電話給D君。根本人又係佢、鬼又係佢。    A君根本就好憎我，因我有佢寶貝�屪瓴瓻Y手，所以佢想整死我。    A君根本就唔想我�咻篳瓴琤X現，所以25星期日零晨12時至2時沒打電話給我。我昨天己打去電話公司check有沒有A君打給我的電話記錄。A君根本就無打俾我。如果有，為可佢連留言都沒有說低？擺明A君怕留言是錄音，會有證據。    A君在25星期日零晨3時才打電話給我，說了些唔關佢寶貝�麊�紛的事。A君只質問我為何fanclub唔夠飛派，我不打電話給她。我說，我怎知A君再可�咧鴔K費飛給fanclub。我根本沒有想過有更多免費飛，我怎會想到可以開口再問。    A君鬧我，我當時真的不知A君可以�咩韟h免費飛。我自問一向不算一個好計較錢的人，有需要的，我一定洗。好以我自已真金百銀用CAD$268=HK$2090買演唱會飛，我無非想坐靚���鵀鮀upport Bernice同可以影多�麠鬲菢� Bernice & fanclub。    之後A君發我難渣收線。好彩，我今次又有證據。A君為了保住佢寶貝&B君�劗鉿茤}我害我，我沒必要現在爭辯，因現在爭辯是沒用的。公道自在人心。我現在會忍，但遲�孎皕|公開晒所有錄音和證據，還我公道！

Article #4:    話說24號星期日零晨4時，A君問我有無fans沒什有演唱會飛，A君有可能�咧�6張給fanclub。我即時只想起2-3個人(不抱括B君，因C君很早前己話我知B君沒有時間去看演唱會。)我零晨5時立刻通知這2-3位fans話fanclub有可能有飛看演唱會。    24號星期日上午11時，我見到B君，雖然很早前C君己話我知B君沒有時間去看演唱會，但我仍試問B君和B君的妹妹有沒有興趣免費看演唱會，當時B君還未決定，而B君的妹妹更加不願意因太夜，所以我只好將B君們放入undecided waiting list。我亦先問了B君的好朋友D君與E君，原來D君未夠19歲，所以不能入場，而E君似萬般不想去，所以我沒有免強，只叫E君考慮清楚再答複我。我只好擺E君的名字入undecided waiting list。    24號星期日下午1時(the end of gathering)，A君問F君�垠籫咧儥t唱會飛給fanclub，F君說沒有，我只可將這壞消息講給這5-6個人。    24號星期日下午大概5時半，G君說有2張演唱會飛給fanclub，基於公平理由，我先順序問ppl from the confirmed list & then waiting list for free concert tickets。因最後在confirmed list�堨u有1個人要飛，(另1個人己買了飛，另1個人己離開了casino)。所以我最後只可給B君1張飛。    在這件事上，F君質問我為何fanclub唔夠飛派，我不打電話給F君。我說我怎知F君再可�咧鴞h�孎K費飛給fanclub。我根本沒有想過可有更多免費飛，我自問不是一個貪心的人，既然己有2張免費飛給fanclub，理應很心足。

Article #3:    I hope what Bernice mentioned that I have no right to take in charge of the gathering and concert in Toronto was just a misunderstanding. I never intend to take over somebody's job. Even I was asked to help 2 months ago, I waited until 1 month ago to step in to first calling Tai Pan in Toronto for information about concert and asking them to help making a gathering to happen. Not until Aug 13 (that's 11 days before the gathering/concert), I "officially" step in to reply all the emails, organizing the concert and preparing for a gathering. Becoz I was actually given permission and authorization from HK fanclub, Bernice assistance and representative of Toronto. This is one of the many accusation that I really couldn't take.    I may have to release publicly all the evidences I have if some of the major accusations cannot be cleared up.

Article #2:    Thanks for my husband for helping me on this trip. Without him, I probably could not handle. Especailly for all the driving from Buffalo to Toronto and to Casino. As I didn't have enough sleep, there's no way I could handle the long hours of driving. He knows I haven't been eating much, and my blood sugar is getting too low that my hands started shaking and I felt dizzy and fainting. He tried to make me eat and even fed me with food.    One more appreciation from my husband is he's the one sponsoring the whole trip, from the flight ticket, car rental, hotels, concert ticket (I bought a VIP $268 ticket), to the phone bills, he's the one paying them all and to take 2.5 days off to accompany me for this trip. This trip is actually our first trip together after we got married, so it's more like a honeymoon. Too bad I can only spare an hour romantically with him alone at the Niagara Falls, all the time at the hotel I have been busying replying emails, MSNing, updating news, making phone calls and sending SMS. I know my husband is a bit upset with the outcome, he saw me working so hard for everyone, yet in return, I'm standing alone and got abandoned.    Right now, I know my husband is really worried & concerned about my emotions & mood, like am I depressed. He keep on checking me up every hour to see if I am sleeping, eating and breaking down. He's afraid that I can't take this attack. Yet I would like to let him know that I'm okay. I have learned my lesson. I feel that I have gained more than I lost. And the most important part is conscience is clear. I got nothing to hide. I tried my best to fulfill every fans wish and to do the best for Bernice. I have no regret. One thing I know I'm dumb is I should not have take in charge even when asked and given authorization. Even in the real world like in a company, the person who is responsible and has the ability to do the work best is always the one who got into trouble first. I should have rather be a joyful little person all the time and stay away for all the complicated matters. Less troubles, less arguments and less conflicts.

Article #1:    If you asked me if I'm a bit upset with this trip, and if my answer is "No", I sure am lying. Yet I feel that I have learned and gained more than I lost from this trip. I learnt the lesson that I should not be meddlesome and help others when asked.    One big gain from this trip is I lost 5 lbs in a week due to lack of sleeping and no time & appetite for food. Amazing, this way of losing weight is faster than I played Wii Fit for 3 weeks. Haha =) Yes, you might still think that I still need to loose some more weight.